Happiness is a lie. Spread to make people search to spend enormous amounts of time looking for something that can't be found. Why do we feed others the lie? Because misery loves company. So what am I going to do? I'm going to stop searching, stop reaching. I'm tired , lost, and broken by life and by love. I want to leave...to just sit it all down and walk away and never look back. I have bound my heart to sorrow and have no idea how to get it back. It can no longer be locked in a small box and put on a shelf. It has become the tumor in my brain, raging and killing everything it touches and growing..widening until there is no more to feed off of all is lost. My head is heavy and I desire a long nap to ease such a burden. And as my thoughts thin to dreamless sleep I do for only hours escape the pain the sorrow, the disappointment in everything. And now the pressure lifts because once again the "I don't care" attitude is back. Breaking any ties with everyone just to preserve what little sanity I do have left.
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