It has to be me....right??

Irdk what this is for other than a place that no one is really on anymore and I just really need to vent. Wanna know what I really wanna know??? How to just be content. My life has always consisted of school and a job or two or three, so now that I just have one and no school, I find myself with a lot of time spent trying to figure out what to do? I feel like I have made friends with one of the most judemental and narcissistic people ever and I've finally become tired of it. So I simply fell off the grid of communication. It hurts to lose the friendship, but not all things can be. I have a really supportive guy in my life who makes me laugh and is just there in a way no other man has ever been. I just want ONE close female friend. Guess I'll just keep wishing when I see a falling star..