In this crazy world.

A man who can wear the mask and play the part so well that when he takes the mask off you are taken completely by surprise and rejoice in the fact that it was done so well. But when it's everyone in my life I'm not rejoicing. I'm actually very mad. As a very independent woman I pride myself on watching who I let into my life but it seems that everyone that I did was wearing a mask and playing their role so well that it seems as if the CUT has been called and everyone is taking their masks off and I'm the one with the dunce cap on, ain't that some bull.

So if I feel like you're not playing the part that you once were you will be let go I have no qualms in releasing you from my life with out explanation. My life is falling in shambles because no one has the balls to be themselves with out a mask. So Fu** it I'm done.

What it's boiling down to.

So a giant leap forward and a a uncanny fallback and I'm back where I started. Jokes on me huh? Nah not at all. Live and learn right? RITE!! So this school year is almost over THANK HIM WHO SITS ON HIGH! I'm so tired of this damn school and most of the people in it. I didn't come here to vent but thats what it's starting to look like so I'll get back to what I came here for. I've recently decided that the quote "If you let something go and it comes back it's meant to be yours" is so untrue. No it was taken away the first time for a reason so why would you want it back that must mean something better is out there right? So I'm going to start embracing life more I think(not sure what I'm about to get myself into). This spring fever might just be melting my brain.

I'm going to take a trip this summer in my lilbit =) (the aveo for those who don't know) to the beach where the men are halfnaked, the sun shines hot, and the water is warm. Can't wait. The hunt is on for the perfect bikini YES!! Got the tummy pierced for a reason =) Any suggestions?

On a different note: I'm 21 now and older men still give me the creeps my mom tried to set me up with one showing my picture on her phone to them and such SO WIERD! But I've decided I've given up on men for right now. HOLD UP.. not saying I'm going to the other side just focusing on having fun is all.

Well n-e-who summer's coming who knows whats in store?