It has to be me....right??

Irdk what this is for other than a place that no one is really on anymore and I just really need to vent. Wanna know what I really wanna know??? How to just be content. My life has always consisted of school and a job or two or three, so now that I just have one and no school, I find myself with a lot of time spent trying to figure out what to do? I feel like I have made friends with one of the most judemental and narcissistic people ever and I've finally become tired of it. So I simply fell off the grid of communication. It hurts to lose the friendship, but not all things can be. I have a really supportive guy in my life who makes me laugh and is just there in a way no other man has ever been. I just want ONE close female friend. Guess I'll just keep wishing when I see a falling star..

Its always interesting to come back months later and see all the things I wrote the trials I've overcome and laugh at how my life has changed.

Friendships

When I was in high school all I wanted was a circle of girlfriends that I could share all my secrets with, that I could spend all my time with we would be inseparable. Just like all the other clicks I saw growing up, but what's perfect on the outside is never perfect on the inside. I have had close friends come and go in my life some moving away and some because of really bad reasons like sleeping with guys I've slept with (smh still don't get that) but now I don't have one close friend to my name I no longer know how to open my self up to getting hurt. Can you be your own best friend and that be healthy?