Frustration unleashed...

Happiness is a lie. Spread to make people search to spend enormous amounts of time looking for something that can't be found. Why do we feed others the lie? Because misery loves company. So what am I going to do? I'm going to stop searching, stop reaching. I'm tired , lost, and broken by life and by love. I want to leave...to just sit it all down and walk away and never look back. I have bound my heart to sorrow and have no idea how to get it back. It can no longer be locked in a small box and put on a shelf. It has become the tumor in my brain, raging and killing everything it touches and growing..widening until there is no more to feed off of all is lost. My head is heavy and I desire a long nap to ease such a burden. And as my thoughts thin to dreamless sleep I do for only hours escape the pain the sorrow, the disappointment in everything. And now the pressure lifts because once again the "I don't care" attitude is back. Breaking any ties with everyone just to preserve what little sanity I do have left.

This relocation process..

So I'm moving...again!

And each process is getting harder
for many reasons..1. I make too many abrupt
decisions. 2. I'm too used to seeing the same surroundings.
3. I'll be around people I don't know. 4. I have way to much stuff : )
5. I have to ask for help (something I'm not kin to doin). But the happy thing
in the end is I ONLY HAVE ONE MORE YEAR IN CHARLOTTE! YaY.
But I'm stilltrying to pin down the settle down spot...Mos def. the south.

So...I've been on here a bit but I'm not the one for writing and letting others read it but I'm gonna try it. I'm not a writer, I'm not a person with all these ideas or thoughts I wanna share. I'm just a woman...living a life that I'll never be satisfied with just trying to find me.
Today..right now I wonder..When will I begin to see through others for what they really are before they get the chance to hurt me? So far I still haven't figured it out..If you know please share. =)

Night